@Steve @astronema i am not really denying any of that though?
even in the context of its history (which to be honest i don't think is as clear cut as a word belonging exclusively to transmeds, but i get that its a complicated one), however, i do have a problem with the people who call me evil and disgusting for saying that the trans experience is not a homogeneous mass and that in this word, that means something specific, i recognize a way to describe my own experience.