Please no replies until the end.

I took 1 pill, NADA! 2 hours later, as the sky was getting 1st light, I finally fell asleep. My mother (long story) isn't ever supposed to call me. In return for her not calling. and stressing me put, I always call her twice a day, religiously.
I just fell asleep, missed 7:30 so she woke me

Now I am heavily medicated, but can't sleep, & a fiber guy is at my door. The ice storm pulled my fiber off the house. I had a booking, either forgot day (with all that was happening), or he was passing by. I could hardly stand, and made no sense. I kept asking who he was? Did I call you?

I said, "never mind, I have no idea what I am saying", and he left. It would be afternoon before I realized he did what he was supposed to do, and I could not take another pill.

When able to make conscious decisions again, I started more funeral planning with my wife, and I did what she forgot.

So, I was up anyway, I was writing an appeal to Veterans Affairs & I thought, it's time to pop back in, and return to Social Media.
You knew this was going to be long?
I told you not to make eye-contact with me

I may delete this whole thread in a few day.
It answers all questions at once /FIN

@Rasta This is where I figured out that I had to find the beginning of thread and am terribly sorry for all you are going through... things are supposed to only happen in 3's ... 🫂🫂 ...

@Rasta Have to ask how is Max and sisters doing ?? Answer when comfortable enough to do so...

@Lstn2urmama My wife was a mess. She's youngest and doing the work of the eldest. Always had to before too, but her mind is messed up processing all this so fast And the conditions found, and how we were right in the community, finally able to see him, and hadn't been inside his house in 10 years, and it was horrifying. She's deeply distrubed by his loss, but as much so by the conditions he'd gotten into. He was so intelligent, I met him first. I needed an excuse to get to his sister.
We talked about Astrophysics, stars, music, electronic, he was brilliant, I could barely catch up, and I'd been around the world, and he'd never left a `100 mile radius. There was no internet, he self-taught from books, but his mind went fast, he was unable to care for himself alone

@Lstn2urmama That's why I didn't want to be online, or see a reply from everyone about each incident I lose messages, that get burried from too many replies, and I had enough to deal with. I waited until the funeral was over to sit down and explain to everyone, but the cleanup, and business affairs of my brother in law will keep us busy until summer

@Rasta totally understand as am also in same position from being ill and unable to get home care and have had to leave much not in place or open new deliveries that have stacked up in hallway or unfinished jobs because of mobility issues and landlord has been an issue

and no help from anywhere nothing for seniors or the disabled and unable to find any lawyer to deal with when one is unable to go anywhere other than bed and bathroom most times am feeling abandoned and with no future

@Rasta the same is happening in for Tim and his MIL and if I die all my valuables will hit the garbage in 2 54 ft. Trailers...

@Lstn2urmama My childhood friend in the country (remember I didn't grow up here, we were a military family, we were never anywhere more than 3 years in my life.) is the brother, of my brother-in-law's wife. She passed in 2006, I think? That might hae been months before or after I retired.
That was the last time I saw him. He has family heirlooms in that house, but leaks and neglect left them worthless. But it's very bad. Just blue-bag recycle extra large bags, are about 10 bags per room, we have 20 waiting for garbage day, just to get to the second room. It will be months before we know if we have fond everything. I found my childhood friend;s grandmothers diaries. I preserved them for a museum but asked if he wanted them, and he absolutely does. I thought so. We had a childhood remark between us "Got any buoys to sell?" as kids, we dug clams, and steamed them, and sold them in front of the house with buoys and old lobster traps, mostly to US tourists with skies in Aug

@Lstn2urmama Don't make me worry about you too? Anyone that you can trust to do wellness checks, or someone we could ask what happened to you?
You get to know Social Media friends, many times, better than in real life, They provide social interactions for the shut-ins and people who just need to chat, because they have no one there.
But it does create more worry for me, Make lists, call someone every day that would notice if you missed a day (NOT ME!!) I don't know if you remember my pirate author friend on Twitter? His wife came on to tell his followers of his passing We had some real good conversations, I had helped promote his books and novelettes,
They are all missed the same as if they lived next door

@Lstn2urmama Don't make me worry about you too? Anyone that you can trust to do wellness checks, or someone we could ask what happened to you?
You get to know Social Media friends, many times, better than in real life, They provide social interactions for the shut-ins and people who just need to chat, because they have no one there.
But it does create more worry for me, Make lists, call someone every day that would notice if you missed a day (NOT ME!!) I don't know if you remember my pirate author friend on Twitter? His wife came on to tell his followers of his passing We had some real good conversations, I had helped promote his books and novelettes,
They are all missed the same as if they lived next door

@Rasta Great memories to have and I have many expensive collections that have not seen daylight because worked day and ight some years and others 7x364 days of many years .. 7 ft Xnas tree has only been up once and took till After Mother's day to take down and put away and not seen daylight since ..

from under my kitchen sink sits on floor into the living room space and not able to deal with since knees got worse and unable to bend down ... I talk a good talk BUT physically unable to do anything if not seated on a chair or stool in kitchen.... motion has to be complete in 1 minute sometimes less if with vertigo ...
I suddenly became 10 years older in this last year as illness has taken its toll ... am feeling better for fist time in ages till another attack hits me ...
I posted a HELP post earlier .. it's long ...

@Rasta Sorry I did not know he was gone .. life changes so much...

Landlord is ignoring my being ill and has taken a court tenancy thing .. and when ill you cannot function to deal with anything ...delibrately in winter to evict me and

has lied with a false lease that they took a signature of mine from other paperwork and the copy sent to me is a photocopy of some different lease never seen before as my orginal lease is from 1991 and this copy has fresh blue ink amd green ink on it and

NOBODY will even listen to me and cannot find any lawyer who will do anything as they all explain that they have no idea how to do anything about it and no recommendations either and the OMBUDSMAN was even WORSE

Landlord has made information sound like am abusive and aggressive and other tenant complaints ...interesting when you do not talk or see others ..
Have one good neighbor who looks after a few things for me a few doors down and ... I will give them your number if OK ..

@Rasta contractor #6 a NO SHOW also and have left a email for KIJIJI about them all making appointments and NO SHOWS

...one showed up and did not like the sound of my voice instead of rejecting the job or doing the job .. some men are just weird ... have hired another company who is Canada wide called Jiffy and will see what happens Monday ...

DISABLED SENIORS or is it just SENIORS are getting SCREWED after working like dogs to build this country and protect it and SUDDENLY we are NOBODY and DISRESPECTED

Senior homes waiting list 3-4 years here

JUST think what the younger generations have to look forward to when they GET OLD ... EXPECTED to sign up for MAID AND BE TERMINATED...

THATS WHAT THE FUTURE LOOKS LIKE ...